Tonight my daughter and I took a walk up to our neighborhood farmers market. I love living in a city that does this each week. So today I look like crap. My hair is in a ponytail because it is beyond hot (I prefer 50-60 degree weather . . . like all year), I'm wearing a frumpy pair of capris, no makeup.
One of the local farms that comes each week is basically a bunch of hot guys who happen to be farmers . . . They even had their picture taken shirtless on the cover of a local food magazine.
Proof?
Anyway I guess these guys are having a documentary made about them. Seriously. So there was a film crew there and everything while we made our purchases. After we were done, someone approached us to sign a release.
I kept thinking the whole time, "Oh God I hope they don't put me on TV." Could I have refused to sign the release? Yes. But then my daughter would have missed out on a really cool opportunity to see herself on a local television show. Plus, she has awesome hair right now...
So on the walk home, I kept thinking about how stressed I was feeling at the thought of being seen on television looking the way I do. I don't want my daughter to sense that stress and be afraid of new experiences because I am. I don't want to have to shy away. I want to be thrilled about things like this so that she can be as well. I want to be a stronger person for myself so that I can also be a stronger person for her.
These are some of my reasons for fixing this now.
Sounds like a pretty great farmers market ;)
ReplyDeleteummm, yes. :)
ReplyDeleteI can totally relate to the daughter concerns. My girls are still very young (23 mos and 5 mos) but I often think about how much I want to be a good role model for them. How I want them to be confident, happy, healthy and successful. I don't want to hold them back because I'm overweight, or I'm insecure, or I'm unhealthy or embarrassing to them. That you are thinking about her shows me what a great mom you are and what a great life your daughter has/will have.
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